Healing and Balancing

our Male & Female Aspects

A Shamanic Perspective

By Elisabeth von Madarasz

As Humankind moves further into the new Millennium towards birthing the coming Golden Age, it is the urgent task for each of us to discover, own and live all that we are in our physical self, as well as our Spirit self; and through self healing, have our physical/personality self support our Spirit self; and it’s purpose for coming at this time, in this place, in this way.

Gary Zukav (author of ‘Authentic Power’) believes that we are no longer five-sensory beings, but are evolving into a multi-sensory species. He says that we are moving away from external power to replace it with the authentic creative power of unity between the soul and the outer personality.

This is the purpose of the Academy, and of Shamanism since the dawn of humankind. To teach the tools for people to connect with their own Spirit and Spirit Helpers, with the Creator and with the Spirit that is in all things, so that each person can become spiritually autonomous. To teach people to follow the voice of their heart not only their head - for their heart is the home of their spirit in their body. To heal whatever is in the way of the Spirit self, the soul and the outer personality working together as one to fulfill their part in the Divine Plan, their purpose for coming.

One of the major areas of healing on our planet at this time is the balancing of the male and female within each of us, so that the Divine Feminine energy pouring into the Planet can balance the former Piscean male energy, thereby restoring harmony and balance. Our invaluable contribution toward this process is for each of us to fully discover, heal, own and balance our male and female aspect. This is also an essential prerequisite for standing fully in our power. For me, the imbalance lay in my male side.

A wonderful, very powerful Maori healer and leader once told me that my female side was very strong, while my male side was almost dead. She said that as long as my male side was almost dead, I was at risk, and that I couldn’t fully protect myself or the people I taught. I was told that I must reconnect with my male side and “find a way of healing it.” Her words were fully supported by my body’s symptoms. My right male side, was physically far weaker than my left, female side at that time.

My father was a very violent man and my mother had the courage to leave him when I was about 6 years old. I had hated him during his life for the violence and poverty of my early childhood, and did not go to his funeral for that reason. I later completed and healed my relationship with him through a Journey (a Shamanic dynamic meditation) to his spirit, after his death. I found that he had not passed over to the Light because he needed to feel forgiven for his actions. We shared, completed and healed our relationship through mutual forgiveness and love. I was then able to joyfully help him pass over to the Light, and he is now transmuting his violent Karma, by spiritually acting as a protector for myself and my daughters. It was my first pleasant encounter with him and a profoundly beautiful, healing experience.

I believe I empower myself when I own and honor all that I am, which includes my physical lineage on both my father’s and my mother’s side. So, I further journeyed to an ancestor on my father’s side and asked him for something that I could be proud of in my male lineage. My ancestor told me that my male lineage dates back to the 13^th century, to the border of Hungary and Austria. Our castle in Hungary sent pigeons to the courts and kingdoms in Europe to warn them of the Saracen’s coming. We were given a knighthood for protecting Christendom. The ethos of my male family line was originally that of warriors for the Light. I have for many years seen myself as a spiritual warrior for the Light and so 1 cannot express in words how much this has empowered me. When I begin to work, I call on my ancestors. How foolish not to, when I have such awesome help; for they are wonderful protectors and warriors for the Light. To live in balance and fullness, I need to own my physical lineages on both sides. It is wonderful to discover their original ethos, which I carry forward, and is part of why I chose them for this lifetime’s purpose.

The next stage of healing my male aspect was to seek and own my woundedness, my patterns and beliefs - many of which were unconscious - and many were inherited from my male and female lines.

My early life was under continual threat - from a male Doctor in an abortion attempt, and being hunted by Russian soldiers for the first three years of my life. On the sixth attempt, my mother escaped with us from Hungary into Austria. My father, an aristocrat who had lost everything, became extremely violent at home. My deep fear and distrust of men made it impossible to have healthy relationships, or to manifest my purpose. How could I be powerful, balanced, or happy while I was disconnected from half of humankind and thereby half of myself - my male right side which is my manifesting aspect.

I am a trained Counselor and have experienced many forms of healing. The most powerful I find, for healing my emotional wounds, undermining beliefs and patterns, is Shamanic Healing. I usually begin when feeling an emotion (eg. fear, anger). I take time to go within to identify the emotion/s. Then I invite my wounded part/s to meet me in my sacred space along with their spirit helpers and my power animals and guides. I ask ‘What’s happening with you? What do you need from me and our spirit helpers?’ This is my richest source for discovering and owning my shadow, my limiting or sabotaging beliefs and patterns.

Often my parts just need reassurance or to be brought up to date. For example, I was in my fourties when my 3-year-old terrified refugee part, was told that the war was over and she was safe now, and that she could drop all her defenses and be seen. What a difference that has made in my life!.

Usually they need to understand what was never explained at the time of the original trauma, eg: that it was not their/my fault. I spent over 40 years of my life unconsciously believing that men wanted to kill me because I was unwanted, unwelcome and somehow evil, needing to be destroyed. Often my mother and father have come in spirit (they are both dead) to explain and ask forgiveness for traumas I experienced. It is profoundly healing to experience them lovingly working together on our behalf, finally providing me and my wounded parts with a healthy model of parenting and relationship. It is also Karmically healing and transforming for my dead parents. The universe is so economical!.

Spirit helpers often provide healing through light, water etc., and often a terrified part is given spirit help, while I get on with life. For example, the Divine Mother Mary comforts my frozen foetus part, (who following the abortion attempt, stayed frozen for nearly half a century, unwilling and terrified of being here). She is now unfolding, and getting quite stroppy, but still hides in Mary’s cloak whenever she gets scared.

Sometimes, I later receive Shamanic Extraction to remove the cellular memory and blocks from my body and fill the spaces with Soul Retrieval of the soul parts that left during the shock of the trauma, bringing me the qualities and understandings I held prior to the experience eg: trust and my innocence. When the pattern is Karmic, the Extraction & Soul Retrieval often go back to the original lifetime, healing at the source.

When we heal a Karmic family pattern, we simultaneously heal all the past generations who held this pattern and prevent it from continuing on to our children’s children. Our whole lineage is healed of this pattern. In healing ourselves we help heal the planet - past, present and future! When we raise our consciousness, we raise the consciousness of the planet.

My healing experiences are reflected in current scientific findings, eg: the Unity Principle, which maintains that everything in the world is connected and interconnected.

Greeory Bateson in “Mind & Nature, A Necessary Unity” (1960s) maintains that we are all parts of the whole — from our individual cells right up to the entire Universe. That the beliefs we hold organize us, usually unconsciously, and are constantly changing. That each of us is deeply connected to the whole Universe.

Science now acknowledges that the entire universe may well be constructed from nothing but consciousness, and that material reality is created by consciousness. Indeed that no object or being on Earth is solid - all is vibration.

Stanislow Grofs book, “The Cosmic Game”, a result of 50 years of research, is a textbook of consciousness. Grof maintains that in holotropic states (altered states of consciousness), people can move across time and space and access Spirit Helpers.

Peter Sanoe the economist, talking of Companies in “The Fifth Principle” states that ‘Everything is interconnected and we will never figure out interconnectedness.’ He sees this as very liberating as long as we let go of needing to know how.

Feldenkreis in “The Potent Self’ points out that ‘you can’t do what you want, if you don’t know what you are doing.’ I can only change and grow by becoming more of who I am, including and integrating ALL of who I am, positive and negative, male and female. To be whole and powerful I need to discover and own all my disowned parts. I need to love my shadow into the Light to integrate and heal myself. I find that giving my wounded and disowned parts a job in supporting my Spirit’s purpose, is an important part of my integration into wholeness. For example, my much appreciated ‘Bitch’ has the task of protecting my space and boundaries especially when teaching. My wounded children have a wand and sprinkle love, healing and peace on all the wounded children in my groups. Feeling loved, owned and appreciated, each wounded or disowned part of me can now support my Spirit and soul’s purpose in this lifetime. My female aspect contributes with its intuition, inner wisdom, awareness, and compassionate ability to relate to and understand others, while my now much-prized male aspect is busy manifesting my soul and Spirit’s part in the Divine Plan, efficiently and effectively.

My life task is to become fully realized. To fully realize all that I am and bring, and to live it all. Shamanically this includes:

1. My Physical lineage - what weaknesses, strengths and ethos I carry, on both my male and female sides.

2. My Spiritual lineage, which includes my Spirit Group, Spirit Helpers and all the wisdoms and evolution over my past lifetimes.

3. My Connection to the Land of my birth and of my choice. I believe I chose all these as part of my purpose for coming to this planet in this particular way.

4. I strive to understand and experience consciously, my part in the whole, and my relationship with humanity at this time on the planet, as well as my connection to the Oneness - to the Kingdoms of Mother Earth, Mother Gaia.To the four seasons, the four directions, the four elements and how these relate and are inextricably connected with humankind.
How the body of Mother Earth relates to the body of humans, and Mother Gaia’s chakras relate to my chakras.
How all these are further connected by the Spirit that moves in all things to the Beings of the Sun, the Angelic Kingdoms, the Masters of Light and the Creator.

Science describes through the Unity and Gaia Principles, what Shamanism expresses through the beautiful symbol of the Spider Web connecting all into the Oneness. The navigator of the web is the Shaman, whose task it is to heal all things of Earth, Sky and Spirit, living or dead, past, present or future.

My task is to know and live all that I am, striving to understand my part in the essence of life, who I truly am as a being of Light and love on the Earth in a physical body, walking between the worlds in the Oneness of all things, striving to stay in harmony, balance and truth, connected to all life forms and by my own Divine Spirit essence to the Creator.

This is the reality of Shamanism since the dawn of humankind, symbolized through the Tree of Life, with its roots deep in Mother Earth and its branches reaching to the heavens, to the Creator. This is what Shamanism offers as a bridge to the Coming Golden Age of Oneness, harmony, beauty, Light and Love.